Stupid

I wanted to cry
I don't know where

I wanted to smile
I don't know how

I wanted to be free
I am tied by my words

I have so many adventures
I am stuck at this room

I wanted to be with the sun
I am tied by the moon

I wanted to be in the beautiful light
I am imprisoned by the darkness

I wanted my heart to be graceful
Violence are laced in it always

I wanted to say something nice and relaxing
No one would hear me saying it

I wanted to change
No one will ever care

I wanted to die
But there is so much to try

Do you all hate me?
I can't say a thing about my past
I can't say a thing about my feelings
It hurts so much