Showing posts with label unused words. Show all posts
Showing posts with label unused words. Show all posts

Friday, December 2, 2016

Feelings

To the sky that shed tears...

I remember the day I am very depressed, facing reality as if it was a nightmare from day to day. I feel as if I do not want to get out of my house, fearing the eyes that will scan me as if I am an outcast. The day that the blue sky can never be a clear blue sky at my eyes, remaining only the dark that can be seen inside my heart.

At those times, socialising with people feels awkward. I felt empty and sad, when finally some people lighten up my days. But, my dear sky, I have seen that as a past I should be happy about, because I am now standing here, seeing my old self as some turning point to be a more happier person.

As the sky gets lighter...

I can see the path has become more brighter. The path that the light before have opened up for me is making its way to much more wider road. I see people with different personalities, different auras, but most of them sheds light to my dark and exhausting days. I cannot be more grateful as I am today that the path is full of obstacles, yet leading me to a much complicated yet full of sunshine, road.

As the rain stops, the sun appears, the rainbow will follow..

The future, my dear sky, is something that I cannot see of which it will be full of darkness or full of sunshine. I see that the road is getting much more complicated, as life have always been. I see that once I take a step forward, seeing back, the darkness behind is like a shadow below the sun. I step upon the shadow and will always take another graceful step. Slowly, as I walk further from the dark past, I know that the shadow will get longer. But, the shadow will remain as a shadow, only there to remind me of how I have become a much better person than before.

As the rainbow stays.. it will also fade and the cycle will start again..

Sunday, April 7, 2013

A Vampire and Dhampir

Almost R-rated. Don't think about something too corny or anything. It's how I see about Vampires. And something have to do with the neck is something usual for them...

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"That night, I could feel the breezy wind through the window in front of me."

A girl with a mid-19 century dress was tied up on a chair. Her eyes are closed by the blindfolds around her head. Her arms are tightly sealed with ropes around her tights and her feet are tied with the feet of the chair. She stayed silent and could only hear the things moving around her. In front of her is a big window, opened whether it is day or night.
There she was, in a big room filled with antiseptic aromas and a big bed on her right. There is nothing special about that room except for the big window in front of her. There wasn't even any bathroom around there.

"Clause?"

A young man sat at the window in front of her and smiled. His big red crimson eyes were perfect with his dark brown short-length hair. His white but not too pale skin reflects the beautiful light from the night sky. His figure is just perfect, like a 18-year-old boy.
He kept himself on the window and stared at the girl in front of him.

"Is it you, Clause? Your stench of blood is unique. I know it's you. The dhampir that Lord Basile would be so afraid of..."

The young man approached the lady and bowed.

"Mylady, Clara... I am here to visit you like any other nights when the full moon arises."

"I see. Are you not afraid with the fact that I should be sucking your blood rather than you --"

"I thought that you do not have the right to disobey me, Mylady."

Clause put his finger on Clara's mouth. Just after that, Clara opened her mouth, showing her big fangs, and tried to bit Clause's finger.

"You shouldn't be sucking a dhampir's blood, Mylady... You know the rules... That is why you are kept as a hostage here in Lord Basile's castle, am I right?"

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There was one a big war between Humans and Vampires to see who could take over the beautiful land of Romania. Humans are nowhere near victory until dhampir, the biggest enemy of vampires, stand aside them and hunt them with their weaknesses. Since that war, a lot of dhampirs still search for the vampires to fully make them extinct.
Clara, is one of the pure blood mistress that led the vampire army when the war clashed. Even though Clara is still a young pure blood, she had everything that a leader needed. She was hated by a lot of mans but also loved. Her beauty is not comparable with the other pure bloods. Her long and blonde hair were braided by the servants and resembles her tomboy side while her oval face and big crimson eyes resembles her beauty.
Clara went to the most front of the battlefield and killed many humans and dhampirs but one, Clause. Clause was the most strongest dhampir in the pack and he would kill any vampires he encountered. Clara already knew about this since she already studied about the army they are going to come across with, but she couldn't took her eyes off Clause.

"Clara!" Lord Basile took over her position as soon as Clara collapsed in front of Clause.

"I see that even the mistress, the leader of the pure bloods, couldn't withstand me... Then, what are you trying to defend on, Basile?"

"Don't underestimate vampires, Clause"

Lord Basile took his sword and fought with Clause. He couldn't win over Clause and decided to retreat. Half of the vampires army had been defeated, turned into ashes by the humans and dhampirs, and the moon was almost down. After the war, the vampires decided to live far off the mountain and inside the bewildered forest, far away from the humans. They fed themselves with animal bloods and lost humans that didn't have any hope to life.

"Lord Basile, please let me hunt Clause..."

"You, Clara? Do you know what you have done in the war? You surrender to him"

"I do not, Lord Basile. Please, give me a chance..."

Lord Basile look deep inside Clara's eyes and gave a nod.
Clara hurriedly went outside the castle with her sword on her back. She knew where Clause would be. She went deep inside the forest and came across a little hut, where Clause lived. As soon as she opened the door, Clause were in front of her and kissed her.

"What are you doing?!" Clara said abruptly and swing her sword blindly. Clause defended himself, still with a smile.

"I know you have something about me, Clara. You couldn't lie"

"I don't!" Clara said half screaming, still swinging her sword. Clause grabbed her hand and threw away Clara's sword. "What are you?!"

"Stay still" Clause said softly and licked Clara's neck. "I'm a dhampir, but I can't resist to drink any blood. Since you are one of the pure bloods, I think that you have to obey me when I defeat you, am I right?"

"Why? How?" Clara said. She didn't have any energy left to defend herself. Clause sank in his tiny fangs in Clara's neck and licked every single drop of bloods that bursts out of her dead veins. And then, Clara collapsed.

"She's so beautiful when she is helpless. I can't resist my feelings for her."

"You! Clause!" said Lord Basile, suddenly appeared in front of Clause's hut. He was furious enough to swing his big sword across Clause. But Clause was faster than Basile's sword. He could avoid every single swing that Basile made with his sword.

"I didn't know that pure blood's blood is very delicious. Especially those that are as young as Clara."

"You are very cursed, Clause! How dare you, as a dhampir, sucks vampires blood?!"

"I have some exceptions, Basile. I'm not those ordinary dhampir you have fought with... Why do you think I'm still alive after 500 years while the others only have the same length of life as a human?"

Basile took Clara in his hands and stared at Clause's eyes in fury.

"You're a vampire?"

"No, I still have a human blood inside of me. I am not."

"What are you, then? Werewolf?"

"You don't have the right to know. Now, if you excuse me, I want Clara to be here with me."

"Never, Clause. I would never give my sacred daughter to you."

"As you wish, Basile." Clause smiled.

Lord Basile took his leave and returned to the castle. Since that day, he made Clara a prisoner in her own room. Closing her eyes and made her unable to move. Clara didn't say a word. She was much too feared about other consequences Lord Basile would have given to her.
Since that day, she kept herself silent. Lord Basile would feed her blood from the blood bank every three days but never talked to her.

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"Clara"

"Clause?"

One night, when the full moon arises, Clause went up to Clara's room. He opened the window and step inside. Clara took a step back in fear. She feared Clause, not only because of his power, but also because of her feelings.

"Clara, listen... I'm going to visit you every time the full moon arises. Is that alright with you?"

"Why? You were the reason i am kept imprisoned here."

"Ah, but Clara, Basile is too blunt to know how smart I am. He intended to protect you from me by keeping you imprisoned like this..."

"Why? Why are you here? Why do you want me so much?"

"You know the reason. As an addition, your blood is much more addicting that I could ever imagine."

Clara frowned. Her pale skin went more pale as she heard Clause's reason.

"You won't take 'no' as an answer, do you?"

"I bet you don't even want to say 'no'..."

Clause smiled and kissed the back of Clara's hand. He took out a deep breath and kissed Clara on her lips passionately. Clara followed his lead, tempted by her feelings toward Clause, and gave in to him.

"I love you, since that war, Clause... I kept trying to forget you, thinking that you are a nuisance in my life. That you are my biggest enemy that I should---"

"Hush" said Clause softly. He kissed Clara once more and said, "Love at the first sight for the little miss. It took me years to actually found someone so beautiful and innocent as you, Clara. If I have a chance, I'll take you away from here."

"Don't, Lord Basile will--"

"He will find us, of course. That is why, I should wait. I won't be going anywhere and so do you."

Clause left Clara in tears. He bid farewell and took his leave. His stench of blood quickly disappeared by the smell of antiseptics around Clara's bedroom.

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"Just this night, Clara. I'll be the one who give my blood to you. Are you that hungry?"

"No. Please, take me away from here, Clause. I don't want your blood solely, but also you as a whole."

"Clara..."

Clause untied Clara's rope and let her stand on her feet. He hugged her and kissed her lips.

"I know you are hungry. Don't worry. I promise, one day, I'll kill Lord Basile."

"I'm sick of being a vampire, you know. Don't tempt me with your jokes."

"Just be quiet and drink my blood."

"One more thing, Clara" Clause said as Clara's sucking his blood.

"If you are trying to kill me now or when I'm not on my watch. Be sure that I know. Even now, with your blade under your dress."

Clara stopped and took a few steps backward.

"I won't, I promise. I'm--"

Suddenly, Clara collapsed in front of Clause.

"She loves me. I know she does. But, she still has some vengeance for me."

Clause took Clara on his back.

"Where are you going?!" said Lord Basile, suddenly appeared from Clara's bedroom door.

"I know you are the one who said to Clara that she should kill me when she had the time. I know that Clara told you about me going here every full moon. But, I also know, she loves me with her whole heart. I know it from her lips. I bid you farewell, Basile. We will see each other soon."

And with that, Clause took Clara with him. Far away from the mountains of Romania.

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"I promise, I won't kill you"

"You do? I don't trust any vampire's word. Even you, Clara, the only person I love so dearly."

"Let go of me. I want freedom, not another dungeon."

"Not until I know you can be trusted, Clara."

Clause kissed Clara's lips passionately. "Please." Clara begged with tears. "No."


-XIII-

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Bisu

Dalam hening, aku diam
Dalam bisu, aku tak bergerak
Dalam hitam, aku tenggelam
Di sini, aku mati

Cahaya adalah tanda bahaya
Terang akan memusnahkanku
Harapan akan membunuhku
Tawa akan mengejarku

Di sini, dalam gelap
Aku bersemayam dengan tenang
Aku membisu dan membiru
Hanya untuk menunggu janji
Menunggu hening

Aku terdiam dalam bisu
Aku membisu dalam diam

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Regard~

It has been a long time since I visit and updated my blog! I'm so sorry, I'm preparing myself for my National Examination and University Entrance Exam T_T I will surely update it more after I have finished it all, because my hand are starting to get itchy!

Well, I'm actually practicing a lot of songs with my guitar, especially K-Pop songs! I'm also learning a little about keyboard and struggling for my classical guitar lessons, so I might start to post up some Cover videos in my blog.

I hope I can visit more, for now, I have to say goodbye!

-AssassinXIII-

Di Kala Hujan

Di bawah rintikkan air ini aku berdiri,
Menunggu dijemput mentari

Di bawah payungku yang biru ini,
Melodi hujan tak berhenti bermain

Di bawah langit yang kelabu ini,
Coretan kelam di masa lalu mulai terhapus

Di antara tetesan yang mengenaiku,
Rasa syukur akan hidup menyelimutiku

Lembap dan basahnya sepatuku,
Melukiskan jalannya hidupku

Di kala hujan,
Semuanya terlihat jelas

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Bayangan

Aku hanyalah sebuah bayangan
Mengawasi setiap gerakanmu
Mendengar setiap percakapanmu
Mengikuti setiap keinginanmu

Aku hanyalah sebuah bayangan
Yang mengetahui setiap kesedihanmu
Yang ikut merasakan setiap kebahagiaanmu
Yang melihat setiap pelampiasanmu

Aku hanyalah sebuah bayangan
Selalu ada bersamamu
Selalu mengikutimu
Selalu merasakanmu

Aku hanyalah sebuah bayangan
Yang menghilang saat matahari tenggelam
Yang tak bisa menjagamu saat dalam bahaya
Yang tak bisa menemanimu saat kesepian

Aku hanyalah sebuah bayangan
Yang tertelan oleh kegelapan

Aku hanyalah sebuah bayangan
Tak lebih tak kurang

Saturday, July 9, 2011

The Forest's Whisper

It’s Saturday morning, and as usual, I help my mom do the dishes and all. After all of that, I went outside to have some fresh-air. It has been 7 years since I live and enjoy the beautiful village, Verlaten. As it is said in the name, this is a forgotten and abandoned village. Only a couple of people lived here, isolated by the globalization going on around the world.

“Tunete Oscurita! How are you, friend?!” someone shouted from near the graveyard. As I approached the man, I figured quickly that it is actually Mr. Clover, the one who always took care of the graveyard.

“Oh, hi, Mr. Clover, you look well today, also,” I said kindly. He smiled, showing all of his wrinkles on his forehead and cheek.

“Thank you, Tunete. I see your friends coming here with their fullest expectation to play?” he said while he pointed at my back. I can see Cielo, Ginga, Nadi, and Valentia running with bright smiles.

“Tunete! Are you ready for today? We’re going to explore the lost forest, right?” Cielo said happily. She is a timid girl with a long and wavy brown hair. She also had a very beautiful bright brown eyes and a beautiful figure. She is basically a dream girl for everyone in the universe.

“He basically doesn’t know about what you’re talking about, Cielo. He hadn’t been with us since we talked about the lost forest,” Valentia continued. Yeah, on the other hand, Valentia is a very energetic girl. She is Cielo’s twin sister. She has the same feature as Cielo, but to difference their looks, Valentia cut her hair up to her shoulder and always wear pants and stuffs that boys wear.

“I haven’t left you guys for that long, did I? I also said that I have some business to take care of,” I said, making excuses, which is actually real! I’m not lying, because I’m not the type of person to lie.

“Oh forget about it, Valentia. Why don’t we just go to our secret hideout and discuss this matter there?” Ginga suggested. Ginga is my best friend since I was born into this world. He had straight black hair, like Japanese people usually had. His body is quite tall, maybe from his Japanese gene? I don’t know, he never wanted to be asked about his birth-place or anything. He had narrow-sharp black eyes that can stab a person if he hates him/her.

“That’s a good idea, how about it, leader?” Nadi replied quickly. Now, Nadi just came to this abandoned village a year ago. His family is an outcast from the Emperor of India, a beautiful place to live after the starvation from The World War ended. Indeed, he had a masculine tanned skin and a strong and wavy black hair. His eyes are pretty much like an eagle, and the color is also very unique, grey.

“I don’t mind. I really need to catch up with you guys. It have been a month since we actually talked about a mission anyway,” I said wisely and lead the way to our hideout. It’s been a while since I walk into our hideout. Our hideout is actually very simple. It’s a little tree house located at Ginga’s backyard. As we set ourselves, Nadi pulled out a simple map and Valentia showed me an old note.

“This is why we want to go to the Lost Forest. As you can see, I found this note while playing soccer with Nadi and Ginga a while ago. Can you read it, Tunete? I can only read the Lost Forest part,” Valentia said as she gave me the rusty note.

“Of course you can’t read it! It’s all blurry, and it’s written in German! Do you want me to just translate it?” I said as soon as I saw the blurry note. The others just nodded their head.

“The ancestors predict that there will be a catastrophe in the near future. There will be five innocent children that will witness the amazing magic of the Lost Forest. And they will be trapped, become one with the fairies, and bring the unbalanced life back to their original state,” I translated it in mere seconds and started to wonder. What does the note means?

“I’m curious by the ‘five innocent children’ part. It’s weird if we say that this is a coincidence. You know, that there are five of us and Valentia founded the note while Nadi found out the location of the Lost Forest and how Ginga said that the Forest is dying and all,” Cielo said, giving all the details we needed.

“Yes. It’s far from a coincidence. Don’t you think that we are the ‘five innocent children’? But that means, if we go there, then we can never come back to our family. What do you think leader? What should we do?” Nadi asked.

I stopped reading the map that he gave me and stared at each of their eyes. We are far from old, we are all 7 years old, only old enough to know that we are going to the elementary school and we can’t just play all the time. Our family would be really sad if we leave them. As a leader, it’s hard to decide whether we go or not in this kind of situation.

“I think we should try it, Tunete. I’m not afraid,” Ginga said clearly. I smiled a little and look at the others. They smiled back at me.

“Alright. Nadi, Ginga, I need your help on the map. Valentia, Cielo, both of you can go and search for some information regarding the Lost Forest and its legend. I think Mr. Clover would know some information about it, so why don’t you go and see him?” I said, directing the move of our little group. As soon as I order them, they work according to the plan.


“As you can see, Tunete, the forest is located behind the graveyard. There’s a secret passage to enter the forest. And in order to do that, we need permission from Mr. Clover. But, if we want this to be a secret mission, we can’t just spill out what we want to do and what our true intention to go there to Mr. Clover, or he will tell the story to our parents, which will stop us from going inside the forest,” Ginga explained.

“But, Ginga, I don’t think Mr. Clover’s story will be listened and believe, by the villagers. He is far too old, and he is a little crazy. My mom won’t even believe anything that he said when I disappeared for 3 days. And I was hiding from the villagers in the graveyard, wandering around to see if ghosts really exist,” Nadi said innocently. Ginga and I just laughed when he said that. Ghost doesn’t exist, and so does fairies and magic, our families taught us that since we were so young. That’s why I’m interested in the Lost Forest. Because, it is ‘Lost’, and no one ever told us about it.

“That’s our advantage, then. Let’s just wait for the girls to arrive, and then we can launch our plan. How about that?” I said as I stopped laughing. Both Ginga and Nadi agreed.

An hour passed, when Valentia and Cielo finally came back. They seated themselves near us and drink some soda from the little fridge on the edge of our tree house.

“So, how’s your search? Both of you only went out for an hour, that’s quick, you know,” I said as soon as they drink the last drop of soda.

“It’s quick because, the only person who wants to tell us about the Lost Forest is Mr. Clover. The other villagers looked at us as a crazy person as soon as we say ‘Lost Forest’. I even try asking my mom, but she only said, ‘there’s no such thing as Lost Forest dear’ with a worried expression,” Valentia explained their results.

“Mr. Clover said that the ‘Lost Forest’ can only be seen by the ones in the prophecy, but it can be heard by everyone, and the existence can be felt by the villagers. To get to the Lost Forest, you have to enter the graveyard and find the passage yourself. Inside the Lost Forest, you can find lots of mythical creature and experience the magic that no one can imagine. Other than that, we have to find out about it ourselves. So, what do you say guys?” asked Cielo as soon as she finished her report.

“Tomorrow, at 7 a.m., let’s meet in front of the graveyard entrance. Don’t forget to bring snacks, compass, and mineral water. We don’t know our destination, so we have to bring this map. If your parents asked you where you are going, just say that we’re going to explore the graveyard and see if ghosts really exist or not. That would be enough,” I said to them. Nadi blushed as soon as I said that. The others agreed. And so, our planning is over, we can only wait for our journey tomorrow.

The sun rises on its own without having any permission from the villagers, and so I ran downstairs with my backpack. I wore my short trousers and comfy T-Shirt. I have my adventurer cap on with me too.

“Where are you going to this time?” mother asked me. I was eating my breakfast silently as my mom asks that question. I stopped eating and looked at her face with a fake smile.

“Our team is going to investigate whether there are ghosts or not in real life, especially in the graveyard!” I said with overwhelming excitement. My mom smiled and kissed my forehead.

“Don’t forget to come back safely, dear. You’re my only treasure since your father left us,” mom said with a little smile. I nodded and hugged her tightly, leaving her with no expectation on what will happen to me in the future.

“Oh, there you are leader! Are you ready?” asked Nadi as soon as I reached the graveyard entrance. The others looked kind of sad. Maybe because it is really sad, to actually leave the family we’ve been together with for seven years.

“Don’t be sad. If the prophecy is true, then we are actually saving the world, sacrificing ourselves,” I said with a dandy tone. The others smiled slightly. Cielo hugged Valentia tightly. I approached her and patted her head.

“It’s alright, Cielo. Don’t be scared,” I said calmly. Nadi and Ginga stared at each other and approached us. We hugged together as if destiny can no longer be broken by us, and we have to give in to the prophecy.

“Are you all ready?” I said as Cielo calmed down. The others nodded. And so, I approached Mr. Clover and asked if he could open the graveyard’s gate for us. He gladly gave us the permit and led us to an unknown path.

“This is the path to the Lost Forest. I know that people called me crazy, but the legend is true,” he said as he left us on our own.

“Thank you, Mr. Clover,” Nadi said kindly. Mr. Clover waved his hand, saying ‘be careful’ as he left us for good. As we take a deep breath, we went into the bushes. The path is very narrow and the soil is very dry. To be exact, the forest is dying, slowly but surely. As we went deeper, we come across to a little space with pine trees all over us. We sat down and rest for a little while. Nadi pulled out his compass and try to locate our place.

“Oh, look at this, guys! The needle won’t settle down,” Nadi said surprisingly. The four of us gathered around him, amazed by the fact that the needle on the compass won’t settle down.

“That means, we really are lost in this ‘Lost Forest’,” Cielo confirmed. The five of us bit our lips and stared at each other. I stood on my ground and packed my stuffs.

“Let’s get going again guys,” I said with confidence. The others followed my lead. And so we went deeper into the woods. It gets darker as you went deeper, and so we took out our flashlights to help us see the way. When suddenly, there’s a rustling sound coming from the bushes on my right. I stopped and held everyone on their place.

“There’s something on your right, leader,” Ginga confirmed. I nodded and observed the place calmly. Suddenly, there’s a big Venus Fly Trap and a little rabbit that jumped out from the bushes.


“Wait little rabbit. These five kids, how do they get here?” asked the Venus Fly Trap, that has a leg. Okay, that plant has a leg. That’s beyond imagination.

“Ah, there are five of them. Are they the legendary kids? They will save us all, Venus Fly Trap! Let’s tell this to the Forest Fairies,” the rabbit said happily. And then, they went back into the bush and disappeared before our eyes.

“Okay, that’s weird,” Valentia commented on the occurrence just now. “I still can’t believe what I just see. A walking Venus Fly Trap and a talking rabbit? That’s just insane!”

“We should keep going, leader,” Ginga suggested. I agreed on him and continued on my walking. As we went deeper and can only see a glimpse of sunlight above our heads, I tried to memorize the note that Valentia gave me yesterday.

There will be five innocent children that will witness the amazing magic of the Lost Forest.

“That’s it!” I said suddenly and stopped. The others are startled by what I did.

“What’s it?” Ginga asked. I turned my body around and smiled brightly.

“The five innocent children will witness the amazing magic of the Lost Forest! That’s what! The unexplainable magnetic field, the talking rabbit, the walking Venus Fly Trap, and the darker it is when we go deeper, it’s because this Forest is filled with magic!” I said with such excitement. The others stared at each other.

“That means, we really are the ‘Five Innocent Children’. And that means, we won’t be able to go back to our family,” Nadi explained calmly. My shoulders went down as he said that. Cielo started to cry again and Valentia kept patting her head. The atmosphere becomes sad once more. When suddenly, again, a little light flew around me and landed itself on my shoulder. I was startled, again.

“Ah, you must be the five innocent children that are stated in the prophecy! The judge awaits you all. Could you all come with me?” the little light said. Cielo stopped crying as soon as she saw the light. As I looked at it closely, it is actually a fairy.

“Excuse me, mind if I ask you what you really are?” I asked with a sudden bravery that came out of nowhere. The light stopped flying around and landed on my nose.

“You can see me clearly, right? I’m a forest fairy. I protect the forest and keep the plants alive,” she said. She had light-blonde hair and a beautiful face, even if it’s too small to see. She wore a green dress that was made with leaves around the forest.

“Are all fairies that small?” Valentia asked out of nowhere. The fairy giggled a little and started to fly around us.

“Not all of us. I’m just a minor fairy in this big society. Now, come on, the judge awaits you all! And he’s not a patient creature,” she said happily. The five of us stared at each other and followed the fairy. The fairy asked us to turn off our flashlights and just rely on her light. She said that there’s a lot of creature that reacts to artificial lights, and they are not nice.

We walked for hours on top of the dry soil of this tropical forest. When at last, we reached our destination, which is an old ruin in the middle of the forest. I can see that most of the wall had been destroyed through time, and there are tree vines spreading on every corner of the ruin. And when we walked in, there is a big old man with a very long white beard standing on the middle of the ruin.

“Ah, welcome, the savior of our forest. We’ve been waiting for you. It has been a long time since the Forest is in a good condition,” he said abruptly. I took a step backward and protect my friends. But the old man just stood there and laughed. “Don’t be afraid, young lads. I don’t want to harm you.”

“Then, what’s the meaning of the note that you gave us?” Valentia asked calmly while Cielo hid behind her.

“Ah, that’s just a welcome message. But what is inside the note, it is something more important than the life of this forest. What is stated there are all true, and you can never run from your destiny,” he said wisely. I sighed.

“Could you tell us why we are chosen? And why is this forest dying? And also, why is it that only Mr. Clover knows about this forest existence?” I asked. The old man laughed again, which is really annoying, even for a 7 year-old boy like me.

“Since you are here, I might as well tell you the whole story,” he said while he laughed in such a joyful expression. “As you can see, Tunete, the five of you here doesn’t even exist. You are all the descendants of the Prime Fairies. At that time, the five powerful fairies who rule this land are scared. Humans began to cut down trees and make good soils for buildings instead of farming. And so, afraid that they will be completely destroyed, they put three-quarters of their life into living souls. And those living souls are you guys here. As soon as they put their life away, they become weaker and their remaining conscience made this forest. Which was then founded by humans and treated as a place that never been here. It is so that the ruin will be forever guarded. The first generation of the Verlaten village is none other than Mr. Clover. That’s why he is the only one who knows about this forest and only told the other villagers that the forest is a forbidden place. Now, as time pass by, the forest’s energy became weaker. So, to put it back alive and to keep the village safe, we need the five souls that have the life of the fairies. That is why, dear, the five of you gathered here. It is already in the plan of fate.”

“I don’t understand. So, the family that is with us the whole time. What are they?” Cielo asked as soon as the old man finished explaining.

“They are fairies. They blend into the human world and become one in order to put the five of you together at the right time. It’s surprising that they actually marry human beings and gave up on their status as a fairy,” said the little fairy that led us here.

“Now, do you all understand why you must live here for eternity?” asked the old man once more. The five of us nodded in both fear and dignity. As if we know what we have to do, we stand on each of the corner of the ruins and picked up a crystal that is attached on the wall. We kissed the crystal and become one with the wind, turning ourselves into dust and disappeared.

The Forest will be revived, the forest will be known. The five children became one. The forest is now alive. The magical fairy can now live in peace. With the harmony of the new live.

“This is, the Lost Forest,” I said as I finally landed on an abandoned village.

‘Verlaten’, that’s what the sign said when I arrived. This is a place that human kind had never touch. And I’m here to see whether there is any mankind left in here. As I searched high and low, I cannot see any person. All that I can see are only houses made out of stones. I guess the one made with wood are all chomped down by the termites.

I continued my journey to the graveyard, when I see a secret passage that is unexplainable. First of all, the graveyard has a dry soil, while this passage has a green and moist ground. I brace myself as I went into the passage. ‘The Lost Forest’ is what I can remember from my memory on when I was a child. I went deeper.

“Oh look, Cielo, it’s a human being,” suddenly a voice came across me.

“We should greet her nicely, leader,” said another voice.

“Let’s guide her to our home. She will be surprise for sure!” said another voice, this time, it is a little lighter than the two voice before me. I stopped and looked everywhere, searching for the sound. But there is no one in this forest except me. As I take a deep breath, I continue my walking.

And then, I found an old ruin with five statues of children in every corner of the ruin. Each of them has a crystal with different colors above their head.

The Japanese looking boy had a blue crystal, the tomboy girl had a yellow crystal, the feminine girl had a pink crystal, the India boy had a green crystal, and on the middle of the ruin, there is a German boy that had a big red crystal above his head. Without hesitation, I approached the German boy. When suddenly, the statue started moving.

“It has been a long time since we have visitors,” he said. I was startled and surprised at the same time. I took some step backwards, but the boy just stands there and smiled at me.

“Don’t worry. We are the keeper of this forest,” said the tomboy looking girl.

“I come here in peace, please don’t hurt me,” I said. The five children laughed and approached me as if I’m an alien. Around them, there are five little light floating around without any trouble.

“Can you accompany us? We’re bored. It has been about fifty years since we have visitors. Oh no, we are the last visitors,” said the India boy, giggling on his own.

“We won’t hurt you if you play with us and promise us that you won’t reveal our location. This forest is home of many magical creatures, so we don’t want any human to come and destroy this place,” said the Japanese looking boy.

“But for you to find this place. That means, you have a clear and kind heart. Please, stay until you feel that you need to go back to where you belong,” said the feminine girl. I nodded and accompany them.

Ah, so this is the Lost Forest. A place where the five fairies of the past hid their selves in order to protect the magical creature in it. I will never forget it.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Sang Rembulan di Malam Hari

Malam pun kembali sepi
Kesunyian menyelimuti langit
Jangkrik pun mulai bernyanyi
Angin pun mulai berdansa

Sang Rembulan muncul
Membawa Kebahagiaan
Membawa Kesedihan
Membawa berita duka

Penghancur harapan
Ialah Sang Raja Malam

Pelindung kegelapan
Ialah Sang Raja Malam

Penyair mimpi kecil
Ialah Sang Raja Malam

Jembatan harapan besar
Ialah Sang Raja Malam

Wahai sang rembulan
Diriku kah yang kau ingkari?

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Darkness Hell

I can no longer see light
I can no longer feel happiness

The dark past confessed
The howling wolf cried
Just to scare the life
Of the unbroken

Emptiness crossed out my feelings
Capturing blood and sorrow

Loneliness spread
Carelessness damned

The hell's gate is open

Now,
I can hear the dead
Calling my name
Asking me to stay
To play and cry

The sorrowful souls are dancing
Tortured by the endless sins

The messenger of death
Played the game of life

The hollow bodies,
Are dying to kill...

Rib apart your life,
and welcome to hell

Monday, December 20, 2010

A Letter of Tears

I was once a little girl that does not understand about the sky and what lies beyond our eyes. Then, I grew up living at a house near the planetarium. I've once read a story, that tells me about a girl that fell in love with a classmate that worked on a planetarium. He knew a lot about stars and often took the girl to a secret place with no artificial light. That's my main motivation for moving in to a village, rather than living in a crowded and bright city.

I am already 20 years old, old enough to have a boyfriend and think if I shall get marry sooner or later. But that doesn't make my spirit down. I really love to study astronomy and other thing that related to it. So, I came to the planetarium now and then, randomly, while studying for my thesis.

There, like any other comic books or novels, I met a guy. He is always at the planetarium, watching the show that is annually hold by the planetarium on Sundays.

"You always came at the same day and at the same time. Aren't you bored?" he asked me while I was watching at the show.

"Never. I love learning things like these. It really eases up my mind, even just a little bit," I replied. He kept quiet after that short conversation. Not long after, I ran into him. He was using a wheelchair.

"Would you like to go and have some tea with me?" he asked me with a graceful smile. I kindly accept it and follow him. We have a great time together. And I didn't feel that any dangerous things will happen if I am close to him, not like any other stranger.

A week from that, he asked me to spare some of my time. I kindly accept it. At night, like the story I've read a thousand times, he takes me to a wonderful place.

The place is very wide, with the sky on top of us. We have a great time. We talk about a lot of things, including death. I know that he looks pale, but, I don't have the courage to ask him. And that day ends when Venus shows itself at dawn.

Weeks have past, and I can't find him on the planetarium. So I ask the owner and find that he have passed away. I am shock. Really shock.

The owner then gives me a letter. He says that it is written and addressed for me, so I take it and leave the planetarium.

I never go to the planetarium again since I know about his death, so I almost forget about the letter too. But when I am going for a ride with my bicycle, I come across the most beautiful place that he showed to me. I ride my bicycle at full speed and take the letter. I almost rip it apart, but, I think he would like it if I read it at our secret star-seeing place.

So, I go there at night and place my back upon the breezy grass, and then open it softly. And then, I read it out loud in my mind:

"The stars are like people's life. They are created by Nitrogen and such gases, forming a beautiful star that shines through the atmosphere, making millions of people gazed upon them and 'wow'-ed at them. People are like that too. We are created by our father and mother's sexual gen. And when we make a living, we can shine wherever we are, at our own pace and skills. Stars also die, by exploding, but it will only happen after million of years. We, humans, will also die, by unexpected things and causes.

Sarah, if you find yourself lonely, look at the sky while you are resting your body on the breezy grass. And then, search for the star called Polaris. It won't go anywhere, I promise you. It will be at the same spot in any season, any time. Maybe, it will make you remind about me and my pitiful life, so that you can go on and reach your dream.



I'm sorry that I never tell you about who I really am, and what I've been through. I have an illness that made my internal organs functions degraded year after year. I know that I'll leave you sooner or later, so I wrote this letter. It's because, well, maybe, I don't want to see your sad and lonely face.

Is it called love? I don't care. The most important thing is your happiness and your dream. Just reach it when you have the time, I know you can do it.

Oh yeah, I almost forgot. There will be a meteor shower on the 20th of this month. When that time comes, let's go together, shall we?"

I gently close the letter and look at my clock. It's the 20th of the month that was mentioned by him. I close my eyes. I pray to God for his safety and, without me knowing it, I cry. I let my eyes open slowly and amaze at the sky. It is a meteor shower.



I write something on the back of his letter.

"Like the meteor shower that I see, my tears are racing down through my cheeks. But I know what I must do. To reach 'our' dream and make it a reality. I know that you will always support me, Chris. So, I won't give up."

I rip apart the letter and blow it to the sky. The pieces are being carry by the wind, while I smile and look upon the sky. It'll be a new day.

Monday, December 13, 2010

Moon :)

Hufh, sudah lama sekali saya tidak menulis. Well, this is gonna be the first time I write my philosophy in English. Hehe. I'm sorry if there is any words in my article that is unnecessary, misspelled, or something like that.

So, I'm going to discuss about.... Well, I don't know. I don't have any ideas yet. It's all drained to a dialogue for my school drama. Hip Hip Hooray! --"

Oh, maybe I should tell you about the moon? 'Cause I really love it.

So, the moon is, the moon. As you can see every night in the sky, revolving around the Earth on its own path. At night, he came out to see us and shone, even though it is actually the sun's rays, not its.

But, every time I see at the moon, well, I feel more relaxed somehow. Like my previous article, I shall give you some examples of its meaning.

1. They are used as the main attribute at Karmic Astrology. Well, I don't really believe in that kind of stuff, so, if you are interested, why don't you open this link here:

http://www.ehow.com/how_4549505_interpret-meaning-moon-karmic-astrology.html

2. They are also used as tarot cards, you know. With Pisces as its ruling sign, the Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. The Querent who gets this card should be warned that they may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if they have any past mental problems, they must be vigilant in taking their medication. They should avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. They can and should trust their intuition.

3. Believe in magic? Ever heard of the moon magic? Well, here are some information from:

http://www.ezwitchcraft.com/magic-moon-phases-meaning/

Enjoy:

Depending on your magical intention, you should aim to work with the cycles of the moon to receive the most effective results. The three major aspects of the moon are the Waxing (or New), Full and Waning.

The New Moon
The Moon is waxing and growing. This marks the phase of the moon when the light is not visible from Earth, because the side of the moon that is being lit by the sun is not facing us. This should be a time to plan spells that introduce new beginnings and projects. A new career, house move, job, relationship, any new venture in life.

Waning Moon
The casting out of the old ways, banishing old habits, the removal of troubles and worries. A waning gibbous moon comes halfway between a full moon and a half moon, and a waxing gibbous moon lies between a half moon and a full moon.

A half moon looks like half a circle. It is sometimes called a quarter moon as this Moon has completed one quarter of an orbit around the Earth from either the new position (First Quarter) or the full (Last Quarter) and one quarter of the moon’s surface is visible from Earth.

Full Moon
Moon Phase Time Lapse

This is a time when the Moon is at its most powerful, and the magic most potent. Performing any positive spell at this time will achieve good results. This is the ideal time for healing, guidance, and completion spells.

The full moon is referred to by a different name, depending on when it appears. For example, the “Harvest moon” is the full moon that appears nearest to the Autumn Equinox, which occurs in late September or early October.

Other names given to the full moon include:

January: Wolf Moon, Moon After Yule, or Old Moon
February: Ice Moon, Snow Moon or Hunger Moon
March: Storm Moon, Sap Moon, Crow Moon, or Lenten Moon
April: Growing Moon, Grass Moon or Egg Moon
May: Hare Moon, Milk Moon or Planting Moon
June: Mead Moon, Rose Moon, Flower Moon, or Strawberry Moon
July: Thunder Moon or Hay Moon
August: Grain Moon, Green Corn Moon, or simply Corn Moon
September: Fruit Moon or Harvest Moon
October: Harvest Moon, Blood Moon or Hunter’s Moon
November: Hunter’s Moon, Beaver Moon, Frosty Moon, or Snow Moon
December: Cold Moon, Moon Before Yule or Long Night Moon

A second full moon occurring in any month is called a Blue Moon.

4. Well, according to Wikipedia's culture for the moon:

The Moon's regular phases make it a very convenient timepiece, and the periods of its waxing and waning form the basis of many of the oldest calendars. An eagle-bone tally stick, found near the village of Le Placard in France and dated to 13,000 years ago, is believed by many to mark the phases of the Moon. The ~30-day month is an approximation of the lunar cycle. The English noun month and its cognates in other Germanic languages stem from Proto-Germanic *mǣnṓth-, which is connected to the above mentioned Proto-Germanic *mǣnōn, indicating the usage of a lunar calendar among the Germanic peoples (Germanic calendar) prior to the adoption of a solar calendar.[155] The same Indo-European root as moon led to the development of Latin measure and menstrual, words which echo the Moon's importance to many ancient cultures in measuring time (see Latin mensis and Ancient Greek μήνας (mēnas), meaning "month").

The Moon has been the subject of many works of art and literature and the inspiration for countless others. It is a motif in the visual arts, the performing arts, poetry, prose and music. A 5,000-year-old rock carving at Knowth, Ireland, may represent the Moon, which would be the earliest depiction discovered. In many prehistoric and ancient cultures, the Moon was personified as a deity or other supernatural phenomenon, and astrological views of the Moon continue to be propagated today. The contrast between the brighter highlands and darker maria create the patterns seen by different cultures as the Man in the Moon, the rabbit and the buffalo, among others. The Moon has a long association with insanity and irrationality; the words lunacy and loony are derived from the Latin name for the Moon, Luna. Philosophers such as Aristotle and Pliny the Elder argued that the full Moon induced insanity in susceptible individuals, believing that the brain, which is mostly water, must be affected by the Moon and its power over the tides, but the Moon's gravity is too slight to affect any single person.[159] Even today, people insist that admissions to psychiatric hospitals, traffic accidents, homicides or suicides increase during a full Moon, although there is no scientific evidence to support such claims.

Superbly, I haven't read all of it when I post it, but I'm really interested in the blue moon things. Well, that's all. It's not my philosophy is it? Haha. But that's alright, I'm still a student after all, and I still have to study a lot. Especially philosophy thingy ~

Friday, November 12, 2010

Blue Rose

So, do you recognize what this picture is?



It's actually called the blue rose. It doesn't exist in real nature, but people really love it! And so do I. It has this elegant and natural feeling in it. Some people actually made it with artificial color that is added to the white rose. Now, here's some meaning from various websites. Hope you enjoy it, and maybe, it can be, that you have the same meaning as this beautiful fantasy rose :)

1. Conveying inner feelings of love at first sight, being enchanted by something or someone.
2. Denote regal majesty and splendor.
3. In Chinese cultures, it signifies hope against unattainable love.
4. It signifies mystery or the possibility of attaining that which seems impossible, mostly because it's a rarity in nature.
5. It symbolizes the unattainable or impossible which won't make it a good choice to give someone you would like to maintain a relationship with anyway.

Got the point, there? Blue roses are definitely mysterious and elegant. It also resembles unattainable love or at least the one that is hard to get, because blue roses are hard to make.

But in the end, it's always up to you, on what will you rely on? Philosophies and theories, or feelings and instincts?

Thursday, November 11, 2010

ME

I can't wait
The world is too dreadful

I can't run
The world is binding me

I can't speak
The world won't let me

I can't hear
The world close my ears

I can't be here
The world shooed me away

I can't exist
God won't let me

So, what am I?

Sleepless

Rampage
Blood

Red,
The way your eyes look at me
The way the rain fall down on me
The way you care about me

Sleepless
Poisoned Ivy

Capturing me
Torturing me
Not letting me go
Away from the dreadful sin

Please let me stay
I don't care about the sin
It's just another stupid theory

Monday, November 1, 2010

PERSONA

A persona, in the word's everyday usage, is a social role or a character played by an actor. This is an Italian word that derives from the Latin for a kind of mask made to resonate with the voice of the actor (per sonare meaning "to sound through").[1]

The Latin word probably derived from the Etruscan word "phersu", with the same meaning, and that from the Greek "πρόσωπον". Its meaning in the latter Roman period changed to indicate a "character" of a theatrical performance.

In literature

In literature the term has become associated with the work of two modern poets, Ezra Pound and T.S. Eliot. They understood the term slightly differently and derived its use and meaning from different traditions. Eliot had taken over and developed Laforgue's ironic "I", whereas Pound worked from Robert Browning's dramatic monologues. Eliot's personae were Prufrock and Sweeney, Pound's were Cino, Bertran de Born, Propertius, and Mauberley. Whereas Eliot used 'masks' to distance himself from aspects of modern life which he found degrading and repulsive, Pound's personae were poets and could be considered in good part alter-egos who are to be dissociated from 'characters' like Malatesta, John Adams, Conducius, or Thomas Jefferson that we find in Pound's later poetry, The Cantos. For Pound, the personae were a way of working through a specific poetic problem. In this sense, the persona is a transparent mask, wearing the traits of two poets and responding to two situations, old and new, which are similar and overlapping. In Homage to Sextus Propertius, for example, Pound 'translated' parts of Propertius's elegies and by means of various modernisations of diction, drew attention to parallelisms existing between Propertius's situation and Pound's own, especially the pressures of living in an empire at war and Pound's need to cease writing shorter lyrical poems and start on longer epic structures. Pound at that time (1917) had written his first three Cantos but was doubtful of their value. In writing the Homage he worked through his anxieties of whether the epic was compatible with modernity or worth writing at all, given the political and social statement of the genre. Pound at that time had no political education, which he would start to acquire only after the end of WWI with C.H. Douglas and A.R. Orage in the offices of The New Age.

In psychology

The persona is also the mask or appearance one presents to the world. It may appear in dreams under various guises (see Carl Jung and his psychology).

source: wikipedia

Sorry, I don't have any more time to search for other resources. Just to be sure, I'm studying this kind of stuffs, especially the psychology part :)

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Wise Words

Well, it have been a long time ago since I write a post. I'm sure no one notices, but I just love writing. It's beautiful when you write something out of expectation, isn't it?

Sorry, didn't mean to talk about that. What I want to say is that, a best friend of mine always said to me, to be with the light and feel the happiness that it shares, while that person just wanted to see me from the darkness.

Guys, I have said this a thousand times, nothing is eternal. The term forever is just a fake hope that humans love to tell. Time have decided what it means.

I feel more eased this way.

When someone tells a lie, does it hurt? Yes, but, it is only for temporary. So, try and don't hate anyone. You will only make yourself miserable.

To love someone, it means to give all what you have to him/her, not only in something real, but also feelings. Your time. Your everything.

That person told me a lot of things. And I really want to thank you :)

Falling in love can never be so beautiful...

Friday, October 8, 2010

Pikiran Kecil II

Waktu. Ya, Waktu. Sebuah kata yang menyeramkan, yang abstrak, bahkan tidak bisa diprediksi dan dimengerti. Mulai dari rentangnya yang panjang dan tidak bisa diperkirakan, satu kata ini bisa mengikat kita semua. Ikatan yang tidak pernah bisa dilepaskan, bahkan sampai kematian pun menjemput kita.

Ringan, memang, jika kita telaah dengan singkat, tetapi, sekalinya kau melihat lebih jauh, justru kata ini sangat rumit. Ia lebih rumit dari kematian. Karena saat kita lahir, waktu 'kita' dimulai, dan saat kita mati, waktu 'kita' telah berakhir. Tetapi untuk orang lain? Belum tentu sama.

Masa lalu, masa kini, masa depan. Cara yang sangat mudah untuk mengelompokkan waktu, bukan? Baiklah, mari kita bahas satu per satu. Tentunya dengan pemikiran saya sendiri. Karena ini merupakan filosofi dan penelaahan diri. Maaf saja kalau ada yang salah. Katakan saja apa yang kalian (pembaca) pikirkan.

Masa lalu. Masa yang tidak bisa diulang, walau berapa kalipun kita mencoba untuk terus menerus menyesal, waktu ini tidak bisa kembali. Kita, yang hanya terikat dengan masa lalu, tidak akan bisa melihat apa yang ada di masa depan dan di masa kini. Kita bisa buta. Ya, buta. Tidak dalam pengartian sesungguhnya, tetapi dalam artian di dalam hati. Maaf saja, tapi itu sebuah kenyataan. Saya sendiri pernah terikat dengan masa lalu. Dan, yang terjadi adalah, saya terus menerus menyesal, terikat dengan segala 'dosa' yang sering disebut, dan tidak bisa berpikiran dengan jernih. Pikiran yang terikat itu akan terus mengekang kita, dan pada akhirnya, kita akan 'termakan' oleh pikiran itu, menjadi satu dengannya, dan tidak bisa lagi melihat apa yang ada di depan kita. Jika kalian (pembaca) ada yang merasa seperti ini, cobalah mencari teman yang berpikiran sebaliknya. Mereka bisa menjadi 'cahaya' bagi 'kegelapan' yang tiada akhir.

Masa kini. Masa yang sedang kita jalani sekarang. Setiap detiknya, jam-nya, dan hari-nya sangat berharga. Jangan takut dan berdirilah dengan tegak. Apa yang kalian lakukan bisa membuka banyak kesempatan di masa yang akan datang. Di masa kini, detik ini, apapun yang kalian pikirkan, lakukan, bahkan kalian rencanakan, bisa menjadi sesuatu yang berharga. Percayalah pada diri sendiri dan apa yang hati katakan. Tidak ada 'kegelapan' tanpa 'cahaya'. Dan belum tentu, 'cahaya' itu lebih baik dari 'kegelapan'. Terus saja ber-orientasi ke arah yang sudah diyakini. Jadikan masa lalu sebagai salah satu tangga yang sudah dilewati, pelajaran. Menyesal itu tidak akan ada gunanya, itu hanya akan membuatmu bermimpi buruk. Yakinlah bahwa dunia itu selalu seimbang.

Masa depan. Maaf saja, saya bukan orang yang ber-orientasi ke arah masa depan. Saya sendiri orang yang ragu, dan sedang belajar untuk menjadi orang yang bisa menghargai apa yang ada di masa kini. Untuk masa depan, jangan takut. Terus saja jalan dalam apa yang dianggap oleh hati kita benar.

Oh, dan satu lagi. Tidak ada yang abadi. Baik perasaan, pertemanan, pacar, agama, bahkan hidup. Kalau jatuh di salah satu, cari kembali apa yang harus dicari. Keabadian itu tidak bisa diraih, lebih baik jangan percaya kepadanya.

No offense, it's just one of my philosophy. And really, I have no regrets in writing this.

Keep yourself together and just smile!

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Pikiran Kecil I

Sudah cukup lama senjang waktu antara saya terakhir kali menulis dengan keluarnya tulisan ini. Well, saya akan sedikit bercerita tentang diri saya atau bahkan pikiran saya. Ini karena saya agak bingung dengan apa yang harus saya curahkan disini sebagai sebuah karya tulis. Apalagi dengan banyaknya tugas yang saya dapatkan dari sekolah, saya tidak sempat menulis banyak. Walau harus saya akui, saya baru saja menyelesaikan salah satu karya saya yang berjudul 'Rahasia', doakan saja supaya bisa benar-benar diterbitkan menjadi buku ya, kawan :)

Well, to put it simple, akan ada banyak bahasa inggris yang menyelangi beberapa bahasa indonesia. Tapi yang ingin saya sampaikan sebenarnya tidak terlalu rumit. Just read and learn.

Dalam pemikiran saya, kematian, adalah sesuatu yang ditakuti oleh semua orang. Mengaku saja, tidak banyak dari kita yang melakukan ibadah kepada Yang Maha Kuasa dengan niat benar-benar ingin menyembahNya. Terkadang, kita melakukannya karena kita takut akan hal yang disebut dengan kematian. Tetapi apakah kalian pernah berpikir lebih jauh lagi tentang makna kematian?

Bagi saya, kematian mengajarkan semua hal yang positif. Kita tidak dituntut untuk menakuti kematian nanti, tetapi untuk menjadikannya pelajaran. Mengapa? Karena dengan melihat kematian seseorang, kita sadar bahwa waktu kita di dunia ini sangat sedikit, jadi kita tidak bisa membuang waktu dan memperdulikan diri kita sendiri. Kalau kita punya waktu kosong, mengapa tidak meluangkannya untuk orang lain? Mengapa tidak kita mendalami bakat yang kita punya? Mengapa kita tidak melakukan sesuatu yang bermanfaat?

Kita juga bisa belajar untuk menghormati mereka yang sudah mendahului kita. Belajar untuk mengintrospeksi diri lebih sering lagi. Dan belajar untuk menjadi lebih baik.

Karenanya, well, all i know is, that death is not something to be feared! It is actually something to worshiped and make it our 'book' of life. Hanya mengingatnya, kita pun bisa gemetar. Tapi jangan pernah takut, karena jika kita yakin bahwa kita telah melakukan hal-hal yang baik, kita pun bisa terus melangkah maju, bukan?

The past is something to cherish, the present is the only time we can correct our mistakes, the future is just another mystery. Be strong and be what you wanna be. Don't let anything stop you :)

G'luck!

Monday, August 30, 2010

Mimpi Kecil

Ingatkah?
Kau akan
Alunan masa kecil

Yang indah,
Iringi alam mimpi

Kepakkan sayapmu
Dan terbanglah
Menuju langit
Penuh warna

Ingatkah?
Saat kau
Bermain tanpa beban

Tertawa,
Hiasi langit kelam

Rembulan bernyanyi
Mengantar sepi

Tenangkan hatimu
Bebaskan imajinasimu
Gapailah bintang
Bersinar terang

Diselimuti malam
Dingin dan gelap
Menunggu matahari
Menjemput dirimu

Kepakkan sayapmu
Dan terbanglah
Menuju langit
Penuh warna

Rembulan bernyanyi
Mengantar sepi

Rembulan bernyanyi
Mengantar sepi

Alunan Iblis

Alunan melodi yang memuakkan
Mengalir dalam batang tubuh
Tanpa henti dan lelah
Menyebarkan negatif dari hati

Ketidakpercayaan yang di pupuk
Menimbulkan konflik tak berarti
Memecah sunyi dan sahabat
Impian Sang Iblis terkabul

Kekosongan hati terpahat tajam
Tak terpikirkan lagi sahabat
Hanya terpaku imaji kegelapan
Impian Sang Iblis terkabul

Mereka pun berdendang riang:
"Cahaya tertelan kegelapan,
Cahaya tertelan kegelapan,
Era baru telah tiba"

Iblis pun tertawa senang
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