Bisu

Dalam hening, aku diam
Dalam bisu, aku tak bergerak
Dalam hitam, aku tenggelam
Di sini, aku mati

Cahaya adalah tanda bahaya
Terang akan memusnahkanku
Harapan akan membunuhku
Tawa akan mengejarku

Di sini, dalam gelap
Aku bersemayam dengan tenang
Aku membisu dan membiru
Hanya untuk menunggu janji
Menunggu hening

Aku terdiam dalam bisu
Aku membisu dalam diam

Di Kala Hujan

Di bawah rintikkan air ini aku berdiri,
Menunggu dijemput mentari

Di bawah payungku yang biru ini,
Melodi hujan tak berhenti bermain

Di bawah langit yang kelabu ini,
Coretan kelam di masa lalu mulai terhapus

Di antara tetesan yang mengenaiku,
Rasa syukur akan hidup menyelimutiku

Lembap dan basahnya sepatuku,
Melukiskan jalannya hidupku

Di kala hujan,
Semuanya terlihat jelas

Bayangan

Aku hanyalah sebuah bayangan
Mengawasi setiap gerakanmu
Mendengar setiap percakapanmu
Mengikuti setiap keinginanmu

Aku hanyalah sebuah bayangan
Yang mengetahui setiap kesedihanmu
Yang ikut merasakan setiap kebahagiaanmu
Yang melihat setiap pelampiasanmu

Aku hanyalah sebuah bayangan
Selalu ada bersamamu
Selalu mengikutimu
Selalu merasakanmu

Aku hanyalah sebuah bayangan
Yang menghilang saat matahari tenggelam
Yang tak bisa menjagamu saat dalam bahaya
Yang tak bisa menemanimu saat kesepian

Aku hanyalah sebuah bayangan
Yang tertelan oleh kegelapan

Aku hanyalah sebuah bayangan
Tak lebih tak kurang

Trapped

I'm trapped,
But I'm not caged

When can I fly?
When can I soar?

What color is the sky?
What is outside the boundaries?
What is it that brings danger?
What is it that is called happiness?

When can I fly?
When can I soar?

I want to know sadness
I want to know love
I want to know courage
I want to smile

When can I fly?
When can I soar?

I may be small,
But I'm wise
I may not have any emotion,
But I'm sensitive

When can I fly?
When can I soar?

I'm kept forever by bonds
My wings are tied

Sang Rembulan di Malam Hari

Malam pun kembali sepi
Kesunyian menyelimuti langit
Jangkrik pun mulai bernyanyi
Angin pun mulai berdansa

Sang Rembulan muncul
Membawa Kebahagiaan
Membawa Kesedihan
Membawa berita duka

Penghancur harapan
Ialah Sang Raja Malam

Pelindung kegelapan
Ialah Sang Raja Malam

Penyair mimpi kecil
Ialah Sang Raja Malam

Jembatan harapan besar
Ialah Sang Raja Malam

Wahai sang rembulan
Diriku kah yang kau ingkari?

Darkness Hell

I can no longer see light
I can no longer feel happiness

The dark past confessed
The howling wolf cried
Just to scare the life
Of the unbroken

Emptiness crossed out my feelings
Capturing blood and sorrow

Loneliness spread
Carelessness damned

The hell's gate is open

Now,
I can hear the dead
Calling my name
Asking me to stay
To play and cry

The sorrowful souls are dancing
Tortured by the endless sins

The messenger of death
Played the game of life

The hollow bodies,
Are dying to kill...

Rib apart your life,
and welcome to hell

Blue Rose

So, do you recognize what this picture is?



It's actually called the blue rose. It doesn't exist in real nature, but people really love it! And so do I. It has this elegant and natural feeling in it. Some people actually made it with artificial color that is added to the white rose. Now, here's some meaning from various websites. Hope you enjoy it, and maybe, it can be, that you have the same meaning as this beautiful fantasy rose :)

1. Conveying inner feelings of love at first sight, being enchanted by something or someone.
2. Denote regal majesty and splendor.
3. In Chinese cultures, it signifies hope against unattainable love.
4. It signifies mystery or the possibility of attaining that which seems impossible, mostly because it's a rarity in nature.
5. It symbolizes the unattainable or impossible which won't make it a good choice to give someone you would like to maintain a relationship with anyway.

Got the point, there? Blue roses are definitely mysterious and elegant. It also resembles unattainable love or at least the one that is hard to get, because blue roses are hard to make.

But in the end, it's always up to you, on what will you rely on? Philosophies and theories, or feelings and instincts?

ME

I can't wait
The world is too dreadful

I can't run
The world is binding me

I can't speak
The world won't let me

I can't hear
The world close my ears

I can't be here
The world shooed me away

I can't exist
God won't let me

So, what am I?

Sleepless

Rampage
Blood

Red,
The way your eyes look at me
The way the rain fall down on me
The way you care about me

Sleepless
Poisoned Ivy

Capturing me
Torturing me
Not letting me go
Away from the dreadful sin

Please let me stay
I don't care about the sin
It's just another stupid theory

Will

The ghost are dancing
The demons are singing
The humans are screaming
The souls are crying

The night has fallen
The dark has risen
The sun was destroyed
The light has descended

Dance through the dark
Embrace with no one
With only the God
Watching in fear

The demons are smiling
The souls are suffering

Oh, how longing
Is this misery of yours

Hatred

I keep running
Running
Running
Running
Away from the past

I keep it here
Here
Here
Here
Inside the depth of my heart

It's obvious,
I don't need to hide it

You know it already
What I am running from
What I am keeping
You know it

That smile
It makes me sad
That tears
It makes me smile

Oh boy,
Don't you know?
I hate you

Sadness

I cried
well, no one cares

I smiled,
No one knew

I want to be recognized
I want to have a slight existence

For all these years
Dreams are fading away from me
Putting a fake mask
on top of all my expressions

When i thought i have seek the light
The darkness came and tied me
Bonding me with eternal hollow
Crossing around my mind

I tried but i failed
I ran but i tripped
I care but never love
So what am I?

Hell's Gate

The immortality
Tied within those promises
Filled with lies
Black wings they have

The unbroken
Filled with smiles
Never they have said a heart-breaking word
White and crystallized wings they carved

Which is yours?
I know you lied
I know that you are filled by the dark
I know that you did the sins

What are you?
Always smiling lightly
Always showing the kindness you have
Fill your life with the truth on your lips

When you die, I'll wait
When I die, you'll leave me
Well, there can only be a gate for us
There is only a gate for us

Come,
The Hell's gate is waiting

Hello Sky

Through all the stars in the sky
Which one shows itself the most?
Which one is it that shines brightly?
Which one is it that you seek?

Through all the wings of a bird
Which one is it that you want?
Which is the one that resembles your dream?
Which one is it that resembles hope?

I'm still waiting
For an answer to be spoken
For a miracle to come
For a million hugs

The answer is within a smile
The opportunity lies beneath the time
The seeker is with you always

Now tell me,
What are you waiting for?

this is it

I can't hold it anymore
all these feelings
trying to be free
waiting for the explosion in just mere seconds

Wait
I know
Why don't i just die?

Why don't you die for me?
That would be fun
It would be exciting

Just Imagine
All those blood that you spill
will make a beautiful ocean

All those feelings
will be gone for eternity

But then again,
do you know who i am?
An unidentified person?
an unexplainable feeling?

Stay focus
I'm not real
I'm just an imaginary thing
Vanishing toward the light

Good bye
I will take care of her

Once

Once, I thought, a never land is not real
Once, I thought, there are no such thing as friends forever
Once, I seek, a kindhearted person
Once, I knew, all of my dreams are useless

Twice, I keep, moving forward
Twice, I felt, so uneasy
Twice, I knew, my life is horrible
Twice, I thought, everything is just a game

More than that, I keep, falling apart in front of everyone
More than that, I seek, happiness that will never be there
More than that, I knew, I can feel very down

Now, do as I told
Now, make me calm
Now, make me smile

Then, I'll never be a normal person anymore

Stupid

I wanted to cry
I don't know where

I wanted to smile
I don't know how

I wanted to be free
I am tied by my words

I have so many adventures
I am stuck at this room

I wanted to be with the sun
I am tied by the moon

I wanted to be in the beautiful light
I am imprisoned by the darkness

I wanted my heart to be graceful
Violence are laced in it always

I wanted to say something nice and relaxing
No one would hear me saying it

I wanted to change
No one will ever care

I wanted to die
But there is so much to try

Do you all hate me?
I can't say a thing about my past
I can't say a thing about my feelings
It hurts so much

The eyes of cats

Those sharp
The beauty
Of an eye

Lurking through the dark
Searching for its prey
Slowly but surely

Hopes
Dreams
Failures
Shows itself
Through an eye

Where the light shines
In the depth of darkness
Waiting for a miracle
To done the undone

When the sharpest one
Protects itself
Trying to stay alive

It went through the dark
Making its way
To me

betrayal

i thought
friendship will make it brighter
smiles will always be there
carved by their faces
staying there always

but it wasn't
emotions destroyed the peace
anger made the smiles upside down
while the atmosphere got darker

betraying one another
making teardrops turn red
slashing the trust that we built
with honor and respect

the wall got taller
separating one and another
frightened the people who believe

we all make mistakes
we have to accept reality
keeping hopes united with faith
where we gain trust

uncontroled emotions will only bring darkness
following the sins to hell

the heart will show some light
even if it just a slight
so trust each other
and don't go on your own

keep the treasure
together in faith
trust the heart
follow the wings

one centimeter each day

At first
The darkness kept me companied
Alone in it for eternity
Shall I be captived

Then
A shining tear fell
Making me one centimeter closer
To an emotion called sadness

A light made it through the dark
Showing a smile
Making me one centimeter closer to happiness

The way my hearts beat so fast
Scared of my loneliness
Making me one centimeter closer
To a strange fear

The way I want to be touched
Freed from the dark shadow
Making me one centimeter closer
To the warm light

In the end
I'm one centimeter closer
To you...