Thursday, November 11, 2010

ME

I can't wait
The world is too dreadful

I can't run
The world is binding me

I can't speak
The world won't let me

I can't hear
The world close my ears

I can't be here
The world shooed me away

I can't exist
God won't let me

So, what am I?

Sleepless

Rampage
Blood

Red,
The way your eyes look at me
The way the rain fall down on me
The way you care about me

Sleepless
Poisoned Ivy

Capturing me
Torturing me
Not letting me go
Away from the dreadful sin

Please let me stay
I don't care about the sin
It's just another stupid theory

Monday, November 1, 2010

PERSONA

A persona, in the word's everyday usage, is a social role or a character played by an actor. This is an Italian word that derives from the Latin for a kind of mask made to resonate with the voice of the actor (per sonare meaning "to sound through").[1]

The Latin word probably derived from the Etruscan word "phersu", with the same meaning, and that from the Greek "πρόσωπον". Its meaning in the latter Roman period changed to indicate a "character" of a theatrical performance.

In literature

In literature the term has become associated with the work of two modern poets, Ezra Pound and T.S. Eliot. They understood the term slightly differently and derived its use and meaning from different traditions. Eliot had taken over and developed Laforgue's ironic "I", whereas Pound worked from Robert Browning's dramatic monologues. Eliot's personae were Prufrock and Sweeney, Pound's were Cino, Bertran de Born, Propertius, and Mauberley. Whereas Eliot used 'masks' to distance himself from aspects of modern life which he found degrading and repulsive, Pound's personae were poets and could be considered in good part alter-egos who are to be dissociated from 'characters' like Malatesta, John Adams, Conducius, or Thomas Jefferson that we find in Pound's later poetry, The Cantos. For Pound, the personae were a way of working through a specific poetic problem. In this sense, the persona is a transparent mask, wearing the traits of two poets and responding to two situations, old and new, which are similar and overlapping. In Homage to Sextus Propertius, for example, Pound 'translated' parts of Propertius's elegies and by means of various modernisations of diction, drew attention to parallelisms existing between Propertius's situation and Pound's own, especially the pressures of living in an empire at war and Pound's need to cease writing shorter lyrical poems and start on longer epic structures. Pound at that time (1917) had written his first three Cantos but was doubtful of their value. In writing the Homage he worked through his anxieties of whether the epic was compatible with modernity or worth writing at all, given the political and social statement of the genre. Pound at that time had no political education, which he would start to acquire only after the end of WWI with C.H. Douglas and A.R. Orage in the offices of The New Age.

In psychology

The persona is also the mask or appearance one presents to the world. It may appear in dreams under various guises (see Carl Jung and his psychology).

source: wikipedia

Sorry, I don't have any more time to search for other resources. Just to be sure, I'm studying this kind of stuffs, especially the psychology part :)

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Wise Words

Well, it have been a long time ago since I write a post. I'm sure no one notices, but I just love writing. It's beautiful when you write something out of expectation, isn't it?

Sorry, didn't mean to talk about that. What I want to say is that, a best friend of mine always said to me, to be with the light and feel the happiness that it shares, while that person just wanted to see me from the darkness.

Guys, I have said this a thousand times, nothing is eternal. The term forever is just a fake hope that humans love to tell. Time have decided what it means.

I feel more eased this way.

When someone tells a lie, does it hurt? Yes, but, it is only for temporary. So, try and don't hate anyone. You will only make yourself miserable.

To love someone, it means to give all what you have to him/her, not only in something real, but also feelings. Your time. Your everything.

That person told me a lot of things. And I really want to thank you :)

Falling in love can never be so beautiful...

Friday, October 8, 2010

Pikiran Kecil II

Waktu. Ya, Waktu. Sebuah kata yang menyeramkan, yang abstrak, bahkan tidak bisa diprediksi dan dimengerti. Mulai dari rentangnya yang panjang dan tidak bisa diperkirakan, satu kata ini bisa mengikat kita semua. Ikatan yang tidak pernah bisa dilepaskan, bahkan sampai kematian pun menjemput kita.

Ringan, memang, jika kita telaah dengan singkat, tetapi, sekalinya kau melihat lebih jauh, justru kata ini sangat rumit. Ia lebih rumit dari kematian. Karena saat kita lahir, waktu 'kita' dimulai, dan saat kita mati, waktu 'kita' telah berakhir. Tetapi untuk orang lain? Belum tentu sama.

Masa lalu, masa kini, masa depan. Cara yang sangat mudah untuk mengelompokkan waktu, bukan? Baiklah, mari kita bahas satu per satu. Tentunya dengan pemikiran saya sendiri. Karena ini merupakan filosofi dan penelaahan diri. Maaf saja kalau ada yang salah. Katakan saja apa yang kalian (pembaca) pikirkan.

Masa lalu. Masa yang tidak bisa diulang, walau berapa kalipun kita mencoba untuk terus menerus menyesal, waktu ini tidak bisa kembali. Kita, yang hanya terikat dengan masa lalu, tidak akan bisa melihat apa yang ada di masa depan dan di masa kini. Kita bisa buta. Ya, buta. Tidak dalam pengartian sesungguhnya, tetapi dalam artian di dalam hati. Maaf saja, tapi itu sebuah kenyataan. Saya sendiri pernah terikat dengan masa lalu. Dan, yang terjadi adalah, saya terus menerus menyesal, terikat dengan segala 'dosa' yang sering disebut, dan tidak bisa berpikiran dengan jernih. Pikiran yang terikat itu akan terus mengekang kita, dan pada akhirnya, kita akan 'termakan' oleh pikiran itu, menjadi satu dengannya, dan tidak bisa lagi melihat apa yang ada di depan kita. Jika kalian (pembaca) ada yang merasa seperti ini, cobalah mencari teman yang berpikiran sebaliknya. Mereka bisa menjadi 'cahaya' bagi 'kegelapan' yang tiada akhir.

Masa kini. Masa yang sedang kita jalani sekarang. Setiap detiknya, jam-nya, dan hari-nya sangat berharga. Jangan takut dan berdirilah dengan tegak. Apa yang kalian lakukan bisa membuka banyak kesempatan di masa yang akan datang. Di masa kini, detik ini, apapun yang kalian pikirkan, lakukan, bahkan kalian rencanakan, bisa menjadi sesuatu yang berharga. Percayalah pada diri sendiri dan apa yang hati katakan. Tidak ada 'kegelapan' tanpa 'cahaya'. Dan belum tentu, 'cahaya' itu lebih baik dari 'kegelapan'. Terus saja ber-orientasi ke arah yang sudah diyakini. Jadikan masa lalu sebagai salah satu tangga yang sudah dilewati, pelajaran. Menyesal itu tidak akan ada gunanya, itu hanya akan membuatmu bermimpi buruk. Yakinlah bahwa dunia itu selalu seimbang.

Masa depan. Maaf saja, saya bukan orang yang ber-orientasi ke arah masa depan. Saya sendiri orang yang ragu, dan sedang belajar untuk menjadi orang yang bisa menghargai apa yang ada di masa kini. Untuk masa depan, jangan takut. Terus saja jalan dalam apa yang dianggap oleh hati kita benar.

Oh, dan satu lagi. Tidak ada yang abadi. Baik perasaan, pertemanan, pacar, agama, bahkan hidup. Kalau jatuh di salah satu, cari kembali apa yang harus dicari. Keabadian itu tidak bisa diraih, lebih baik jangan percaya kepadanya.

No offense, it's just one of my philosophy. And really, I have no regrets in writing this.

Keep yourself together and just smile!