Feelings

To the sky that shed tears...

I remember the day I am very depressed, facing reality as if it was a nightmare from day to day. I feel as if I do not want to get out of my house, fearing the eyes that will scan me as if I am an outcast. The day that the blue sky can never be a clear blue sky at my eyes, remaining only the dark that can be seen inside my heart.

At those times, socialising with people feels awkward. I felt empty and sad, when finally some people lighten up my days. But, my dear sky, I have seen that as a past I should be happy about, because I am now standing here, seeing my old self as some turning point to be a more happier person.

As the sky gets lighter...

I can see the path has become more brighter. The path that the light before have opened up for me is making its way to much more wider road. I see people with different personalities, different auras, but most of them sheds light to my dark and exhausting days. I cannot be more grateful as I am today that the path is full of obstacles, yet leading me to a much complicated yet full of sunshine, road.

As the rain stops, the sun appears, the rainbow will follow..

The future, my dear sky, is something that I cannot see of which it will be full of darkness or full of sunshine. I see that the road is getting much more complicated, as life have always been. I see that once I take a step forward, seeing back, the darkness behind is like a shadow below the sun. I step upon the shadow and will always take another graceful step. Slowly, as I walk further from the dark past, I know that the shadow will get longer. But, the shadow will remain as a shadow, only there to remind me of how I have become a much better person than before.

As the rainbow stays.. it will also fade and the cycle will start again..

Prologue

Pagi itu, salju sintesis pertama turun di dalam Cube A101. Selama aku mengabdi di dalam tim riset, ini adalah keberhasilan terbesar tim riset Ardha. Akhirnya, orang-orang negara Indonesia menikmati salju walaupun hanya di dalam kota Cube A101. Entah bagaimana dengan kota lain.


Januari. 2020.


Ayah berhasil membekukan kelompok fraksi anti-pemerintah di Area 104. Sudah beberapa tahun ini Ayah menaklukan banyak kelompok anti-pemerintah. Pembangunan Cube yang tidak terdaftar untuk membuat tempat prostitusi atau perdagangan bebas sangat menjijikan. Lihatlah Ayah, aku akan menghancurkan mereka, lebih dari yang kau bayangkan.


Januari. 2020.

Choices

I'm trying to write stories again, but my mind kept focusing on my college subjects, so it is a bit hard to concentrate on writing fictions at the time being. Although sometimes the idea came out of nowhere when I'm studying. It's fun, but I want to finish some writings first hehe.


Today, I want to tell about happiness! :D


Ever heard of "Bad Day", "Bad Mood", or even "Eternal Unhappines"? Okay, the last one is a little bit extreme...


As human beings, it is rational to actually be depressed or demotivated, maybe even to think about the hardships that we have done on that day and how people won't appreciate those hard works of yours. But as my mom always said, "Being happy or not is a matter of choices. It does not come from the people around you, but it comes from within yourself. So you cannot say, 'I need someone to motivate me today'. You should say, 'I am very motivated today!' And you'll be able to bring positive thoughts within yourself without having anyone near you to do so"


A wise advice that my mom gave me at the time I told my mom about how bad my day was and how I just want to yell at everyone at that day
Yes! Happiness is not made by your surroundings! But, it is made by yourself! A bad day will not be a bad day when you always be grateful at what you experience that day. So, just set a smile, forgive every scolding you receive today, be tough, and share that positive aura of yours! Maybe, you'll make people around you happy because of your happiness :)


Good Night! And may tomorrow be a better day :)

Warming Up!

Though the rain pours over,
The sun will still shine


Though bad events fill your day,
The day will still pass


Though the line is thin,
This is still reality


Though the dream is beautiful,
It is still a dream


Whether people like it or not,
The time will pass on


Whether it is as painful as people thought it would,
Aren't we still breathing fine?


Thus, what shall you choose?
To run or to overcome your day?


- Good Morning, Have a Great Day Ahead :) -

Esclair de Reve and Rahasia

Hello!! Oh My Allah SWT :) Finally i can write again after a year. Woohoo.

Well, I want to publish two of my old stories here, written in Bahasa Indonesia. Had some of short stories in my old posts. I still love to read those short stories written in English. Maybe you can have a look at it when you have the time. So, enjoy these two stories!

http://tinyurl.com/Esclairedereve

http://tinyurl.com/Rahasiastoryof13

If you have any advise, would really love to actually hear from you :) Just let me know XD

*PS: If you don't like something bloody, don't read Rahasia. It contains a lot of bloody scenes and I recommend you really have a great base of religion since it's a bit unusual.

You can download and read it :) But do mind about copyright!