Hello, my blogspot!
It's been two years since my last post.. I was overwhelmed with so many things that had happened during these two years!
I happen to come across several anxiety-disorder situations and I even went to seek professional help in order to identify what I am feeling. Well, it seems that most of it comes from my traumatic childhood. It's getting better now that I know what was the cause from all of my stressing points, but I am still trying to recuperate since I have buried my feelings for so long.
I never stopped writing during these two years, especially because writing fictions had always been my remedy or you can say as my stress-relieve! It's a very great thing that I know how to manage myself, but often times, I press myself way too much that I feel like I am running out of breath. Yeah, like Muse said "asphyxiating".
I have three ongoing stories, which as always I do not know how it will end. Anyway, I feel like I am getting closer on figuring out how to drive my anxiety out of my life. Other than writing, I am trying to change my sleep pattern (whereas I usually sleep very late), eat healthy foods (dieting on junk food and too many sweets), and of course you cannot forget exercise! I am trying to gain more happiness hormone to drive out my 99% un-explainable worries.
Well, I can't keep up with how my blog is going on. I want to try to inspire people to not give up and write with their hearts, but I guess I still can't do that in daily basis. My stories, mostly, have a dark vibe, it doesn't comply to common sense, even if I have a great sense of justice for the characters. I love seeing my characters interact with each other, slicing between dimension and time, having a connection with each other in different time lapse, all in the fear of leaving behind a negative impact for the readers.
I am a fantasy lover, as you might have known, but I keep on creating sad stories of moving on or stepping forward. I keep my romance notion at the top and mix it with fantasy, but I am still not confident enough of sending it to a publisher. I mean, would you even consider reading what I write as a therapy? I feel joy whenever my characters come to live, but I don't know how people perceive it.
Anyway, it has been a great time to actually just burst out all of my emotions in a very raw manner. As you may have known, I usually conceal it in a story :)
See you again when I have the urge to write inside this blog of mine. I really wanna update my tumblr story, but I guess it lacks a lot of things at the moment, so I will focus on finishing Arthadia :)
Ciao
It's been two years since my last post.. I was overwhelmed with so many things that had happened during these two years!
I happen to come across several anxiety-disorder situations and I even went to seek professional help in order to identify what I am feeling. Well, it seems that most of it comes from my traumatic childhood. It's getting better now that I know what was the cause from all of my stressing points, but I am still trying to recuperate since I have buried my feelings for so long.
I never stopped writing during these two years, especially because writing fictions had always been my remedy or you can say as my stress-relieve! It's a very great thing that I know how to manage myself, but often times, I press myself way too much that I feel like I am running out of breath. Yeah, like Muse said "asphyxiating".
I have three ongoing stories, which as always I do not know how it will end. Anyway, I feel like I am getting closer on figuring out how to drive my anxiety out of my life. Other than writing, I am trying to change my sleep pattern (whereas I usually sleep very late), eat healthy foods (dieting on junk food and too many sweets), and of course you cannot forget exercise! I am trying to gain more happiness hormone to drive out my 99% un-explainable worries.
Well, I can't keep up with how my blog is going on. I want to try to inspire people to not give up and write with their hearts, but I guess I still can't do that in daily basis. My stories, mostly, have a dark vibe, it doesn't comply to common sense, even if I have a great sense of justice for the characters. I love seeing my characters interact with each other, slicing between dimension and time, having a connection with each other in different time lapse, all in the fear of leaving behind a negative impact for the readers.
I am a fantasy lover, as you might have known, but I keep on creating sad stories of moving on or stepping forward. I keep my romance notion at the top and mix it with fantasy, but I am still not confident enough of sending it to a publisher. I mean, would you even consider reading what I write as a therapy? I feel joy whenever my characters come to live, but I don't know how people perceive it.
Anyway, it has been a great time to actually just burst out all of my emotions in a very raw manner. As you may have known, I usually conceal it in a story :)
See you again when I have the urge to write inside this blog of mine. I really wanna update my tumblr story, but I guess it lacks a lot of things at the moment, so I will focus on finishing Arthadia :)
Ciao
